Jillzey

The Sensation

  • 22nd July
    2010
  • 22

Theme for Week 11: Road

As I try to jump back on the wagon of actually writing shit for here, instead of boring you with my awesome pictures (yes, I know that doesn’t make sense).  I’ll go with this week’s theme, that is really old and shows you how very far behind I am on these things.

The road. My road. Hasn’t been straight. Hasn’t been easy all the time. Has been fun and interesting. And I wouldn’t change a thing.  Even the stuff that I though wasted my life.  Turns out, it didn’t.  I turn 35 in a couple of months, which has me reflecting a lot. For a brief second I tried to compare my life to a few people that I know and care about. I love those people, dearly, they mean so much to me.  But when I look at their road and what’s behind them and what I see in front of them, I wouldn’t trade roads. I wouldn’t trade lives.  Not a second of it. Not a tear. Not a smile. Not a pain. Not a loss. Not a love. 

I have friends that have mortgages and grown up jobs with grown up things to do.  Not sure I have that. Not sure that I want that. I have responsibility and take some of it seriously, some of it I don’t. Not everything should be taken seriously. I have a good job, it pays well and affords me awesome perks and allows me to work from home so I can be around for my son.  It allows me to indulge in my greatest love, outside The Kid and family.  So, I’m lucky.

I have a good life. I have great friends, both in-person and in my Imaginationland. I love them all. I have an awesome kid with his own uniqueness and unique difficulties that will shape who he is. I can’t wait to see how his life progresses. I have a cold-stealer that is sleeping in my bed right now. He’s a good guy. He loves me, unconditionally, and for me, not for who he thinks he can make me. With both of these people, I share most of my days and laughter. We laugh a lot. We all are always trying to make the other ones laugh and smile. Conversations are laced with sarcasm and a smile.

The road behind me, has been good.  The hardships have made me strong and loving.  I appreciate what I have and who is in my life.  I think I let them know, but just in case, I have a few phone calls to make in the morning.  I have lots of road still ahead of me with some pretty awesome goals on it. I can’t wait to see how it turns out.

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