Jillzey

The Kid made me a beautiful breakfast in bed that was truly in bed and followed it up with doing all the dishes. Nothing! I tell you Nothing is cooler than the dishes afterwards being done.  He makes me so proud and I love being his mom. The person you see before you is a direct result of getting to be his mom. I strive to be a better person because of him.  My mother’s day thanks goes out to The Kid for letting me be his mom!

As for my mom, the state of our relationship makes me sad. I haven’t heard from her since I left her a week ago. I won’t hear from her until my wedding day unless I contact her. Yesterday, I ordered my dress and with all the excitement I felt about that she wasn’t the person I wanted to share that with. Mostly, because I wanted someone to be excited with me and be mentally present for the conversation. She isn’t either of those things.  I’ll call her today but first I need some drinks in me so I can blame the alcohol for the tears.

Read the exciting new update here…..

I’m in the Houston airport waiting for my next flight. I’m going back “home” for my bridal stuffs weekend.

I’m excited to see my friends and family. I’m lame and already miss my boys.

I have a bridal shower on Saturday. My mom is hosting it. I haven’t talked to my mom in about another and a half. She hasn’t called me since February 15 (my phone keeps good records). We used to be really close but it doesn’t seem like she wants that anymore.

We had a rough visit last summer and a miserable one last October. We didn’t talk to until I showed do up in town for Christmas.

I called her really excited to tell her that I am getting married and she wasn’t happy for me, couldn’t fake it, and really hurt my feelings. There has been distance since.

I’m her only daughter. This is my only wedding. And she is missing it. She isn’t a part of it and it makes me so sad. I try not to think about it. It is still hard.

I haven’t had any contact with her about the shower. I got the details when I got the invitation.

I haven’t really talked about it to anyone but Torgny because it sucks. I’m about to get on a plane and my heart still hurts.

There is a new page on the Nuptial Extravaganza website.  You now have a page to meet the awesome guests that are flying/driving/whatever in for weekend.  The Lodge Guests is a page just for the guests that will be staying with us at the lodge. 

There is still room so if you want to come and can come, let me know, we can reserve you space. 

There is also a page so you can see pictures and a map of the lodge.  Luckily it is in the summer so there shouldn’t be any re-enactment of The Shining.